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August 24, 2008
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Well I try to be confident and believe that there is nothing wrong with me and that cancer hasn’t come back, but the devil just lets my mind run away with me.. Why does it seem to take forever for a doctors appt. to come.. I called last week and told my rad doctor’s office that I was having some problems and they said I could come in this Tuesday.. Well I feel like Tuesday is never going to get here.. Two more days.. I keep telling myself.
I have been going to hand therapist for lymphedema. I keep telling myself that the pain I am having in my side is from the fluids, but now it’s getting to the point where I just sit and worry… I haven’t cried yet but just feel like I did two years ago when I was unsure about what was going to happen to me.. I have learned in the last two years that every pain doesn’t mean cancer has come back. But this one is just on my mind all the time… It’s a dull pain that is there almost all the time or is it just there because I am worried so much about it… It’s like I will check to see if the pain is still there.. And if it’s not I just poke and prod at it until I find it again.. Crazy… It’s not a sever pain it’s just a dull pain. It’s just hard to describe.
About a month ago I had my treatment with hand therapy and when I left to get into the car my side hurt so bad. Now when I say side I mean 5 inches down from my arm pit.. My therapist gets the fluids going in my arm and they must have been flowing down my side.. I don’t know ….. I just wanted to come here and get my fears written down…. My husband keeps telling me it’s probably fluid laying in there.. But every time I search on internet on lymphedema it never says anything about fluid laying in the side.. But then again I shouldn’t be searching for things on the internet.. That takes your mind in worse places.. Hopefully I will get my answers Tues…...............
Thanks for your support -
Hi, Lori.
Yes, it feels like forever waiting for doctor’s appointments. Waiting is so hard. I pray that your answer will be the good one. Please take care.
Hugs,
Yuyu
My name is Annie. I am a 45 year old mama to 3 sons. My youngest has Non-hodgkins lymblastic lymphoma t- cell. He was diagnosed almost a year ago. He has had a relapse. Just was sent home after more than 3 weeks in the hospital with a very hard new chemo.So strong that he had blood transfusions, platelets, drained his right side and left a tube in there to continue draining for a few days. He has lost his hair. Has lost weight and is waiting for a stem cell transplant. He has told me he wants to give up.He’s 18 now and he says he can do what he wants….ugh…anyway, please pray for him as we will pray for you. His name is Robert. God has been my strength. I hope our Lord gives you the strength and healing in Jesus’s name, Amen.
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